jeez

What even is college life
It's like this weird limbo between being a kid depending on mom and dad and being an adult with a job and lots of shit to deal with.
It's great for the most part, and keeps me busy, but it gets me down sometimes. There are new friendships, but old ones are fading painfully.
And there's that constant nag that this is freakishly expensive. Savings barely cover the first year, scholarships are hard to get... how are we gonna pay for all four years?
sigh
Just sad tonight. And unmotivated... have an extra credit paper due in the morning that I should really do...
but it's 2am and I just want to sleep.